Cortiepants' Journals

IMMAGE

I feel fake saying I want to change my immage.

But to be completely honest I don't really like the person I am.

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time.

To when I had good friends.

But didn't realize it untill they were gone.

Like elementary school.

When all we had was each other.

"Best Friends"?

Yeah, I miss that.

I miss just being Cortney.

And not "that 'emo' kid"

But what's "emo" anyways?

I've always thought it was just a musical genre.

But I guess I wasn't informed that it meant slitting your wrists, starving yourself, and being sad all the time.

It's all pretty wierd.

Because the kids who call me 'emo' are all ten times skinnier than I am and don't know how to have a good time.

Me, I'm just the average blob teenager.

When I'm hungry. I eat. I don't starve myself.

When I'm sad. I cry. I don't cut myself. I just cry. Sometimes for seconds. minutes. hours.

But when I'm happy. I'll fucking jump up and dance. Laugh. Have a good time.

I'm not embarressed to be myself.

So I guess you can call me emo.

What the fuck ever.

But i'm sick of it.

stereotyping is lame. LAME!

so what if i like boys I can share my pants with.

i wear bows in my hair.

my eye makeup is heavy. (omg i'm soo goth)

i wear 'wierd'and'different' clothes.

i'm cortney.

once again.

i'm sooo sick of being called 'emo'.

that's why i want to change.

i liked who i was.

untill stereotyping got the best of it.

bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

this has absolutely no meaning.

i guess.

what ever.

bye

this is from like the best book ever! [the perks of being a wallflower]

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row o X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And he was always there to do it

Once on a white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it up on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed
When he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
Because that was the question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it up on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister
making out one the back porch
And his mother and father kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

That's why one the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen.

EMO

" The word has survived and flourished in three decades, two millenniums, and two Bush administrations. It's older than four baseball teams, six basketball teams, four football teams, and two soccer leagues. It's older than five former Yugoslav republics, the last seven national spelling champions, and Avril Lavigne. It's older than most of its fans.

It's been a source of pride, a target of derision, a mark of confusion, and a sign of the times.

It's been the next big thing twice, the current big thing once, and so totally over millions of times.

And yet, not only can no one agree on what it means, there is not now, nor has there ever been, a single major band that admits to being emo. Not one.

That's pretty impressive. And contentious. And ridiculous. Good thing too--because so is emo.

Emo is short for emotional. But isn't all music emotional? Well, yes, or at least it should be. Originally, emo was short for "emocore," a strain of hardcore punk that was notable for its obsession with feelings (as opposed to politics, anger, and smashing stuff up). Then it started to be applied to bands that weren't punk, to fashion trends, to sad-eyed kids in the back of class. It's always been mildly derisive, a term used by haters and critics to dismiss something that's overly weepy, self-indulgent, or unironic. Every generation that loves emo bands simultaneously rejects the term while claiming owership of it--meaning even if they won't admit they love emo, they certainly will say how much they hate everything that's been called emo since them. But still, no one knows what it is. "

little nanos.

brittny and i. we have this little plan. and some of you buzznetters are going to give us little ipods. (nanos) haha.

and if you think you're good enough to give them.. you should ask one of us what that really means. lol.

♥

cortneyyyy

♥

so...

i like my best friend's cousin who we saw nakey on accident.

wierd i know.

but he's wayyyy hot. and nice. and hot. and hot.....................

but i can't have him it's terrible.

oh, and he's reallllllly hot!

oh. wow. gross

Oh, wow. Gross.

My Brother has downloaded some virus or something helping his band.

And now porn is popping up.

It's not cool.

groooossssssssss.

boobs.

EEwww.

thanks brand. ;)

III

You are
[ ] under 5'2
[ ] 5'2 -5'6"
[x] 5'7'' more medium then short
[ ] in between 5'7" - 6'
[ ] tall

[x] naturally blonde
[ ] redhead
[ ] brunette
[ ] dirty blonde/brownish
[ ] black
[ ] at the moment dark brown

[ ] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[x] green-eyed
[ ] my eyes are weird and they change
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[ ] silver/gray- eyed
[ ] black eyed

[ ] glasses
[x] contacts

[x] short hair
[ ] medium
[ ] long hair

Your nationality includes...
[ ] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] hispanic
[ ] nicoya
[ ] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[ ] italian
[ ] scottish
[ ] filipino
[ ] armenian
[ ] dutch
[ ] french
[ ] german
[ ] irish
[ ] greek
[ ] portuguese
[ ] polish
[ ] english
[ ] korean
[ ] jamacian
[ ] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[ ] native american
[ ] russian
[ ] swedish
[ ] african
[ ] peruvian
[ ] hungarian
[ ] thai
[ ] czech-slovakian
[ ] you aren't sure
[ ] romanian
[ ] finnish
[ ] egyptian
[ ] welsh
[ ] norweigian
[ ] croatian
[ ] austrian
[ ] persian
[ ] spanish
[ ] other

i have nooo clue at all

Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ] red
[ ] khaki
[x] pink
[x] yellow
[x] black
[x] green
[x] blue
[x] white
[ ] silver
[x] purple
[x] brown (tans, etc)
[x] orange
[x] clear

Some sports/physical things you have done at least once in life
[ ] soccer
[ ] cheerleading
[x] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[ ] softball
[x] ice skating
[ ] wrestling
[x] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[ ] basketball
[x] baseball
[ ] golf
[ ] hiking
[ ] kayaking
[ ] canoing
[ ] camping
[ ] horseback riding
[ ] tennis
[x] volleyball
[ ] martial arts
[ ] rugby
[ ] frisby golf
[ ] surfing
[ ] motocross
[ ] bmx
[ ] wakeboarding
[ ] snowboarding
[ ] skiing

personality survey

Your personality is sometimes...
[ x] talkative
[ x] shy
[ x] funny
[ x] serious
[ x] bubbly
[ x] spazzy
[ x] fun loving
[ x] laid back
[ ] strict
[ x] hyper
[ x] weird
[ x] ditzy
[ x] sarcastic
[ x] slow

The music you like is?
[ ] classic rock
[ ] rap
[ x] alternative
[ x] rock
[ ] pop
[x] country
[x] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[x] christian
[ ] classical
[x] techno
[ ] oldies
[x] punk
[x] metal
[x] reggae
[x] emo
[xx] screamo
[ ] latin
[x] hardcore
[x] noise
[x] ska
[ ] 80's
[ ] reggaeton
[ ] dance hall
[ ] hip hop

The pets you have had?
[ ] cat
[x] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] mice
[ ] ferret
[x] rabbit
[x] fish
[ ] ducks
[ ] chickens
[ ] rooster(roosters are hens)
[ ] horse
[ ] bird
[ ] frog
[ ] hermit crab
[ ] prarie dog
[ ] none
[ ] turtle
[ ] hamster
[ ] snake
[ ] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] goats
[ ] chinchilla
[ ] tarantula
[ ] squirrel
[ ] grasshopper
[ ] turkey
[ ] geese
[ ] pigs

Clothes you like to wear are?
[x] shirts.
[x]sweatshirts (hoodies)
[x] sneakers
[x] jeans
[x] flip-flops
[x] sweatpants
[x] hats
[x] skirts

Shoe Brands You Like?
[ ] Nike
[ ] Adidas
[ ] K Swiss
[ ] Steve Madden
[x] Vans
[ ] Etnies
[ ] orchrid bmx
[x]chucks
[ ] rainbows
[ ] Puma Roma
[ ] DC'S
[ ]Dravens
[ ] Doc's
[ ]Roo's

States I have been to.
[ ] Alabama
[ ] Alaska
[ ] Arizona
[ ] Arkansas
[ ] California
[ ] Connecticut
[ ] Colorado
[ ] Delaware
[x] Florida
[ ] Georgia
[ ] Hawaii
[x] Idaho
[ ] Illinois
[ ] Indiana
[ ] Iowa
[ ] Kansas
[ ] Kentucky
[ ] Louisianna
[ ]Maine
[ ] Maryland
[ ] Massachusetts
[ ] Michigan
[ ] Minnesota
[ ] Mississippi
[ ] Missouri
[x] Montana
[ ] Nebraska
[ ] Nevada
[ ] New Hampshire
[ ] New Jersey
[ ] New Mexico
[ ] New York
[ ] North Carolina
[ ] North Dakota
[ ] Ohio
[ ] Oklahoma
[ ] Oregon
[ ]Pennsylvania
[ ] Rhode Island
[ ] South Carolina
[ ] South Dakota
[ ] Tennessee
[ ] Texas
[x] Utah
[ ] Vermont
[ ] Virginia
[ ] Washington
[ ] West Virginia
[ ] Wisconsin
[ ] Wyoming
[ ] D.C.

soundtrack to my life.

Set your music player to play all music and shuffle. no cheating.

Soundtrack to your life:
Opening Credits: lyrical lies - cute is what we aim for. (my favorite)

Waking Up Scene: sofa beats. lol. (my brother's old band)

Car Driving Scene: someday you will be loved - death cab for cutie

High School Flashback Scene: headspace - velvet revolver.

Nostalgic Scene: wake me up - zebrahead

Bitter, Angry Scene: i don't love you - my chemical romance

Break-up Scene: 3 - desaparsitos

Regret Scene: the crows are coming for us - from first to last

Nightclub/Bar Scene: december 27, 1990 - the appleseedcast

Fight/Action Scene: dreamland - the appleseedcast

Lawn Mowing Scene: under the knife - rise against. lol. that's actually a funny one.

Sad, breakdown scene: overnew - daytwo

Death Scene: wonderful - the benjamins

Funeral Scene: solid gold telephone - head automatica

Mellow/Pot-smoking Scene: sofia on the stereo - the benjamins

Dreaming About Someone Scene: everything will be alright - the killers

Sex Scene: Panama - if you see jordan - something corperate

Contemplation Scene: for teh workforce, drowning - thursday

Chase Scene: transatlantic foe - at the drive in

Happy Love Scene: valentines day - day two

Happy Friend Scene: the war ends - rancid

Closing Credits: night drive - the all american rejects

II

1. Would you marry for money? i dont think soo0

2. Have you had braces? no

3. Could you live without a computer? NEVER!

4. If you could live in any past time period, where would it be? probally in the 50's with kate

5. Do you drink enough water? no.

6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take 'em off? i keep them on

7. What are your favorite fruits? nanners. lol

8. What is your favorite place to visit? my aunts house because she has really cute neighbors.

9. Are you photogenic?suree

10. Do you dream in color or black and white? i've never thought about it. i'm pretty sure color. but black and white would be coool.

11. Why do you take survey?? because i am realllly bored. and can't sleep

12. Do you drink alcohol? no

13. What is the most beautiful language? whatever we make up. lol roooarr

14. Do you like being kissed when you are asleep? like i would no.

15. WHAT do you like MOST: Sunrise or sunset? sunset. im awake for that

16. Do you want to live until you're 100 yrs old? if i can sure.
17. Is a flat stomach important to you? kinda

19. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights switched on or off? off

20. Do you believe in magic? not really.

22. Do you like to watch cartoons? of course

23. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real? WHAT DO YOU MEAN SANTA ISN'T REAL!? lol, uhm.... i think around 4th grade

24. Do you write poems? hAh.

25. Do you snore? no. i don't think so

26. You sleep more on your back, front,or sides? side

27. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler? my poooodle maltese. tucker. =]

28. Are you basically a happy person? most of the time yes

29. Are you tired? yeah

30. Did you drink anything with caffeine? yes

32. How many landline/cellphones do you have in your house? 4

33. Do you get along with your parents? not really

34. Do u smoke? no. that's gross.

35. Do you have a kitty? no.

36. Have you ever had a birthday party? chyeah

37. What do you do when you're sad? talk to jessie.

38. What do you need most now? sleep. and new trusty friends.

39. What song are you listening to now? here we go again - paramore

40.what are you craving right now?tacoss.